To be honest I’m trying to think of what I actually achieved and did this week, being work wise. My email account says I have been extremely busy. My mind on the other hand is blank as I write this. I guess that means I have gotten all my things I had to do, finished and completed. But I have no satisfaction in my mouth, did I do my tasks half hearted, did I put all my energy into what I had to do. I never doubt myself or put myself down, but this week has just been empty but I have all this excitement building up for next week, it’s just a strange sensation of what my body and mind are going through. Next week is no ordinary week, it’s a new week and a week that I find my never land. We start shooting the show again and it feels like I can breathe again and let go… My team has been working so hard and I honestly wouldn’t have been able to do this without them, they the back bone to the show and I thank them for putting up with me being naïve at times, my hard headed and stubbornness. But if it wasn’t for my vices they wouldn’t be such an amazing team, these guys and girls complete me.

So as you read this I hope I’m painting you a Picture of how lucky I am to have an amazing team behind me. The reason why I’m blowing smoke up their butts is because I got to spend a morning with Super Heroes, or you can call them the unsung heroes of our time. Spending the morning with these individuals made me realize that putting trust in people can either break you or save your life. In my case I guess you can say I was saved. So I can safely say we live amongst super heroes, it’s a bold statement I just said or even an untrue statement. Super heroes are a made up fictional individuals. My imagination might be getting ahead of myself, but I don’t think it is.

I was the human torch; I got to spend a morning with fire fighters, paramedics and sea rescue workers. These are the Super Heroes that live amongst us in the world, and we don’t even acknowledge them. The stories I heard of some of the rescues they did, the stories of how they saved someone’s life or how they put themselves in harm’s way just so that they could give a second chance to a living soul. These people have the most powerful super power, they born with it. It’s called Pride and a heart to go with it, and nothing can break them, they way to powerful.

I wanted to know what it was like to be a fire man. So I was put in a fire suit with an oxygen tank and bright yellow helmet I was tossed in the deep end of what turned out to be an experience that was something out of a horror film. I was surrounding with a bright red orange flame in a steel container. The real fire men in the background screaming keep on your knees and crawl and don’t stand up, but all I could really hear was the oxygen tank working with every breath I took. The heat was something that is hard to describe, but with every second passed it felt like my body temperature hit a new high. With me crawling and keeping as low as I could, I glanced up and a huge flame was just above my head while it was running along the roof of the container, it was rushing towards the entrance of where I had to get out…  

These men and women risk their lives every day; it’s because it’s what they are born to do. Remember when you were a young child, and someone asked you what you wanted to be when you older. Well these are the kids that said they want to be super heroes. I got to be the human torch for a morning, and now I can tick it off my bucket list. I found a new respect for the heroes and its because of them we are able to live in this world knowing that if we are in trouble, and you see those flashing lights and hear that siren, you might just have that second chance to life, now that isn’t such a bad thought now is it?...  

So It started 2 years ago, didn’t think that it would change my life so much. I didn’t think that an Idea that was so simple at the time could also be so dramatic, yet take this long to achieve.  You never set out to do something that will take 2 years of your life. It plays out in your head so quickly that one never questions of how long it will take. It’s an emotional rollercoaster from your highs and lows, from all the sacrifices to all the friendships made and lost. What if, is the question that pops into my head allot, would it of made any difference if I took those other opportunities that lay down in front of me, would I have gotten this far.

Allot of people always say that they always dreamt of doing what I’m doing. That remark most times annoys me to the point that I scream my response in my head. The response is usually the same one, what’s stopping you of doing it… What sets me doing something that you also dreamt about; I guess the difference is that I made the dream become my reality. I just approached it differently!

They have been a few copy cats who have attempted to set out and do what I’m doing. It’s so bad that I was tipped off by someone who mailed me and told me that there’s this individual that used my concepts write up for his own attempted to make his Idea a reality, but its wasn’t his Idea, It was mine so his ship sunk without even setting out to sea. I won’t say the person’s name because I will save him embarrassment; I take things with a pinch of salt and take it as a compliment. If you are going to set out to achieve what I am doing then at  least make it your own and ask yourself why are you actually doing this. If it’s for fame and fortunes then you are defiantly going to fall short, because it isn’t about that.

What is the bigger picture, it’s simple and the answer is the answer. So reading that last sentence you thinking what am I on about. The saying curiosity killed the cat comes to mind, everyone knows that saying and it speaks for its self. The answer can be anything, it doesn’t always have to come down to the point, it could also answer the question of why. So if you lost with this paragraph then that’s the point. I’ll be able to answer the question once I know the question and if I can’t answer the question will you judge me, has life boiled down to that and will society put a label on me. That is my question, but should I care and if you know me then you will know my answer.

My TV show is called THE BLUEPRINT TRAVEL SHOW it’s been my life for the past 2 years and it has taught me very important lessons and it has made me have a love hate relationship. We start shooting the series again in a week, let’s hope the weather plays in our favor, but if not we can blame it on the weather man, but that won’t be fair now would it. No rain No rainbow, and that’s got me where I am Today!         

              

So the rush you get from having one more hit hoping that it won’t cost you in the long run. You got your fix, now what? Do you just want more? I stare at my hands and wonder, from every hand I welcomed with a hello and a good bye, If my hands could see what their fix had been for the day, how they spent their day, did they achieve what they set out to do.  Sometimes that day dream you mustered up in your head becomes a reality, but not as precise as what you thought it would be, it leaves you with that bitter sweet taste in your mouth.

The flight back to reality you start that day dream again, playing it over and over in your head, and you compare it to what you just did. My happy place is something unique and special; no one cares for it unless they can get something out from it. As human nature is its all for one and one for all, and as selfish as one can be, you still have your choice of taking that leap in what you set out to do. My attention was to go and get my fix, what I got out from it was that a new life grows in my best friend’s wife’s belly. It will start its life with a name, and its day dreaming will lay down the path of the life it will take.

For my future, well that’s the question, what am I willing to sacrifice so that I will have my fix whenever I choose. The reality is I am getting older, but I still get my high from something I started doing at the age of 11. I’m chasing my childhood memories back when everything made perfect sense and that same approach as I took as a child, it got me this far into my young adult life. Nothing you set out to do is right or wrong, it all has an impact in your future, the only constancy is change, no day is the same nor should it be, life would be so boring if it was. My show is taking me throughout Africa and the world. But I will never forget waking up at the age of 11 and getting my high, it all started with putting my first foot forward onto the sand and leaving my footprint as mark as I stepped off the continent into the wonderful world of the Indian Ocean. Thank you Durban for always being there for me, you started that ripple effect in my life that set me free. Next stop the continent of Africa hope the public transport is kind to me and my team; it’s going to be one insane adventure. 

So I find that when I’m truly stressed out I need my fix, not in a fix by the means of drugs, my fix being the ocean. But what happens when the ocean is 600km away and you land locked, what then?. From cold sweats to a mild depression I find myself pacing up and down, trying to get the release and itch out of my system yet nothing is working.

I find myself lying with my back on my bed; my mind is all over the place, not stopping for a second to take a break. The hunger and the urge to break away, that craving of doing something spontaneous… Should I shouldn’t I, I keep asking myself this question. The day dream of wonder and excitement, yet a message comes through on my phone making me break away from this day dream for a brief second.

The reality is that I need my fix or else that ripple effect that I day dreamed about won’t happen. Every choice you make is by chance, and the outcome is unknown. The saying there is gold at the end of the rainbow. I guess the Idea behind that, is that one makes their own rainbow. My flight has been Booked, let me go get my fix!!!